You were supposed to be the best year of my life but turned out to be the year that almost killed me. I was supposed to get married and have the wedding of my dreams. Instead, my future plans were ripped away from me six weeks before I was supposed to say I Do. The loss of my best friend and fiancé broke me. Never in my life have I been in such a dark place, and you 2013, got to witness it.
If it wasn’t for amazing people in my life I am sure that 2013 would have been my end. Thanks to awesome friends and fantastic family I was able to rebuild my life and myself. You may have tried to break me 2013, but I can promise you that it will never come that close again.
You taught me so many things. I learned that I am the only person who should be in control of my happiness. I learned that I cannot allow outside forces be what decides my fate. I am in control of my future and I am the only person who controls how I feel about life.
Instead of dwelling on the bad you caused, I am going to choose to remember you for the good. You brought me closer to people I didn’t know I needed in my life. Angie and Sarah have officially been dubbed my best friends, which was a title I was afraid to give anyone ever again. They earned it and I love them for sticking by me when I was the worst version of myself. I terrified my parents and sister with my depression and I am glad that even when I hated them for it, they wouldn’t leave me to wallow in my darkness.
New adventures came into my life this year. Visiting family I hadn’t seen in 10 years, a full time job for the first time in years, new friends I never thought I’d make, and a new love. The last part of this year has brought me closer to the person I want to be than I have ever been.
Goodbye to you 2013. Dark clouds and all! You are gone and 2014 is here. I don’t regret anything that happened because like EVERYONE kept telling me, you got better in time. 2014 will be the beginning of the rest of my life. I am not making any resolutions, I am starting fresh and just living my life the way I should, with positivity, abundance of love and friendship, and with openness to everything that comes my way.
Thank you, 2013.